This week two interesting things happened. Yesterday, I got your actual Christmas present back from Ms. Lois Lowry. She signed the dedication as I had asked... because Caroline Renée... YOU DON'T SUCK!
The other interesting thing was today... I got worried that I had broken your heart at some point because a friend said that all men do it... When I asked you, you said that I hadn't yet, and asked me why. I told you about what she had said, and you agreed that it's just a matter of time before I break your heart. It took me aback... Because truly, my heart would crumble if I ever broke your heart -- even if just a fracture.
You got short with me, and told me that thinking about hypothetical things will just make me crazy... and you didn't have the patience for it at that time... and ended it with "So, fuck that shit." And it made me think, yeah... fuck that shit! Then I reread what you wrote, and I was like... why did I not get hurt by what she wrote there? I've figured it out. I'm finally starting to trust you more, and overcoming some of my tendencies to worry. I mean, who knows why you got short... you were probably having a bad hair day - you just got it cut 2 days ago.
I will see you tonight, and tomorrow. I'm looking forward to Christmas.
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